He seems to still be fighting depression and I'm still trying to keep him in good spirits. Full time job.
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My hubby is a type 2 diabetic of 30 years. He has Gout, HBP, parkinsons, hyperlipidemia, ophthalmic migraines, sleep apnea, spinal stenosis, scoliosis, degeneration of the spine, obesity, & 3 bypasses. His insulin is 5x concentrated over normal doses. No exercise…non-compliant. This blog is a documentary of the progress of his disease....and a place for me to vent, so that I can continue to love and support him. All of my anger goes here. This is not the wife he sees.
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I have read your long letter, and I can truly say this is very sad for you and me. You see, as a type 1 diabetic, I once thought I could make a difference in this world. I made myself an expert on the disease, and considered my disease a blessing because I had the opportunity to study the human metabolism first hand. I could compare animal studies and my own cause and effect. I tried and tried to help diabetics. I most received verbal stones like it is your way or the highway. Or everyone is different. It works for you but ..... I finally told my wife, despite I became an expert, not even the doctors want to listen to me. I never see a doctor myself because I have no reason to see a doctor. I just inject insulin every two hours 24-7 and limit red meat and carbs that rush into the system. I exercise a great deal, but that is easy for me. You see, I have always been an athlete.
I now conclude that I have a unique set of genetics. Not aht my diabetes is so different, but because genetics has instilled on me a powerful, will, determination, committment and perserverance to live not just healthy, but healthier than any one else, even non diabetics. I have pretty much accomplished my personal goals. But I have failed horribly to bring other diabetics down my path. After being diabetic for 40 years, I would think some one would believe me just by looking at my results. I have been studying the difference between listening and hearing. If my listening is correct, most want some one else to fix their health. I cried when my niece died from diabetes, and I am greatly saddened for you, your husband and ll those who I tried to help but will not believe a word.
Too many diabetics live a lie. Yes it does take a committment, but it is doable. I have made myself an example to my children and I have now agreed with my family, my efforts are pointless and futile. No one will ever believe a word I say. I feel like an island in a world when diabetics could live in perfect health, but they too often do not.
I love my childrem, I love my wife and I love life. I must now go forward and realize I can not do anything for anyone. I just do not have the leadership skills.
Neil glenwood50@oath.com
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