Friday, July 11, 2008

New foot problems

I continue to be amazed at some aspects of this "journey". This week, his right foot has swollen up something terrible. In the area just above the toes. And the top of the skin looks like it would if you got a floor burn. You can almost see red blood through the skin, an area about 2" in diameter. I asked him what happened and he said, nothing, it just showed up.

So, of course, he can't wear shoes and his sandals hurt his feet and I know it's really hard for him to walk on the bottoms of his feet barefoot. Sigh.

He also had a migraine headache that lasted about 5 days. It's gone now, but he was pretty much flat on the sofa the entire time.

7:15 on Friday night and he's gone off to bed. Pretty sad.


Tuesday, July 08, 2008

The amazing body

He is sleeping on the sofa right now. Snoring like all get out. The interesting thing is that his feet will go through spasms of severe shaking when he stops breathing due to his sleep apnea. It's like his feet shake to alert him that he needs to breathe. I think this is just an amazing pattern and think the bod is incredible.

Looking at his feet, the carcot and gout are just as bad as ever, but no open sores, so much to be thankful for.

He was awake most of last night with a severe migraine headache which has stayed with him almost all day. He didn't eat anything til 3:00 pm. And he's been sleeping since 4 pm. (It's 6:30 now). I'm oping when he wakes up the headache will be gone.

I really should get the video camera out and shoot his shaking foot, his snoring, his sleep apnea. Problem is by the time I found the camera, he'll be awake.


Monday, July 07, 2008

A new day -

I have no idea what that was, but I woke up this morning and I'm perfectly OK. Wonder if it was an allergic reaction of some kind. I seriously thought I was going to have to go to ER yesterday morning because I just could not breathe. Last night I just hurt so bad in my chest, just like pneumonia. But today - I'd swear I never had anything wrong. Just amazing.

So, can you have an allergic reaction to a non-compliant spouse? LOLOLOL!!!!

OK - you gotta have some humor in this! :O)

And he is so much better today. Like last night never happened. We're back working on re-doing his office. More cables. I swear, can a computer geek have too many cables? NOT!!! But it is all starting to come together and it will be very nice. He finally has all his computer books and software in one place, the printers are all working finally (we had a problem with the network and 2 printers had been non-functioning for months. So progress! Yeah!

It's been a good day! Vacation is almost over, tomorrow he goes back to work.


Sunday, July 06, 2008

I'm so sick....

Not sure, but it feels like the pneumonia is back. Sigh. So we came home early and I was just sitting on the sofa, resting, had the heating pad on. Had been resting for a couple of hours and picked up my laptop, and started answering emails. He came downstairs and wanted to know if I wanted to go to Burger King or McDonald's with him to get something. I said, "let me finish this email first" and kept typing. He paces the kitchen and says again, "are you ready"? I said, "no, just let me finish". He got mad and walked out the door. Got himself dinner. Nothing for me.

I find it so amazing - I'm sick and he can't wait 2 minutes (ok, it had probably been less than that) for me to finish and email, close the top of my laptop and get untangled from my cords. And in all seriousness, I had finished the email, put my hand up to close the laptop when he walked out the door. I just sat there in shock. That was 4 hours ago. He hasn't said a word to me since. He came home and went upstairs to the bedroom. And I don't even feel well enough to care. I fixed a cheese sandwich half an hour ago.

He's off again tomorrow. I may have to go shopping all day long. I keep saying that I love him and I'm going to stay. Tonight I wonder why? What on earth is wrong with me that I put up with this? I'm the one who is sick, trying to divert pneumonia again. Problem is, I'm too sick to care, just wanted to write this note to myself.