Friday, May 27, 2011

"I don't have high blood pressure"

That is what he says to every single physician he sees.  Yet he is on atenolol.  And last night, his BP was 166/58.  Hmmm.....  but note, he doesn't have high blood pressure!

We have had a calm day. Thank goodness.  I think it is the calm before the storm.  He is not going to want to do yard work this weekend and I am going to force it.

He doesn't want to go anywhere as there's too much traffic.
He doesn't want to go to the movies as it would be too crowded.
He doesn't want to go out to dinner as there are too many people out this weekend.

So I decided it's a good time to do yardwork!

We have over 2/3 acre in this yard.  He doesn't want to move.  So he can help with the work.

And I know that he is going to tell me he has a headache, a back ache, his hips hurt, he is sick to his stomach.....I just don't know which excuse he is going to use.  And I'm ready to tell him that this time, there are no excuses!

Hmm.....wonder who will win this one?  LOL!!


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Deliver me from this man.....

My prayer this morning. Need I really say more?  8:02 am and he's already yelling his head off at me.  Why?  Because I stated a political/religious opinion of mine.  Obviously, I am NOT allowed to have any thoughts of my own because if I state them, he goes ballistic.

Yes, he took his insulin shot.

No, he has not had anything to eat.

Is he low?  Most likely.

Is he going to do anything about it?  Well, he just did, didn't he?  Yelling gets his adrenaline flowing which gets his body to push glucose which will raise him up out of his low.

I understand the medical mechanics of this.

But really, truly, beyond any words I can describe.....I am tired of being the brunt of his emotional outbursts.  I am tired of not being allowed to express my thoughts or opinions....or having to remember not to say certain things at certain times of the day because his sugar might be (probably is) low.

So my prayer today is that God will deliver me from this situation - one way or another.  Horribly selfish prayer....but perhaps one of sanity at this moment.