Another year gone!

Update of diabetes wife.    It's now been over 7 years since the hubs died.  I remember him saying to me, "when I'm gone, you will forget all about me!"  Wish I could say to him, "LIAR!!!"  LOL!!!  No, I think I think of him more often than not, still trying desperately hard to learn from my time as the wife of a diabetic.  Now....I'm the widow of a diabetic.  Grief never ends.  It just becomes a part of your past, of what makes us who we are today.  It makes us stronger.  It makes us even more capable of enduring whatever the future tosses our way!

Living in a retirement community I continue to see people come and go.  I meet people who are pre-diabetic and immediately want to "teach" them and tell them what to do and what not to do.  Most days I keep my mouth shut because I realize they just don't want to learn, want to hear, want to know!  Absolutely no one wants to know that diabetes "killed" my husband!  It was a heart attack!  And when I ask how his heart got so bad....it was his age.  There is an excuse for everything but never an admission that being pre-diabetic or diabetic could be the beginning of the end.

I've managed to get the weight off that I put on during covid.  At age 74, I'm not on any medications, drugs or supplements.  I'm trying hard to maintain a consistent caloric input around 1200 calories per day and to get in between 7500 and 10,000 steps.  I have a set of yoga/exercise/movements that I do to strengthen my back and muscles around my spine.  All of my labs are good!  I will confess it has NOT been easy.  So I understand how someone with diabetes can give up!  It really would be easier to just sit in front of the TV in my recliner and eat whatever I wanted.  I tell myself I'm happier this way.  The question is....is it the truth?  Can I convince myself of that?  A battle I face every day!  I keep telling myself that nothing tastes as good as thin feels!!!  I have 15 more pounds to go to get to my goal

To those of you living with a diabetic spouse, keep the faith.  Take one moment at a time.  Breathe.  Live.  Pray.  I still say that prayer is what got me through and what keeps me going.