holey shirts

Hubby pokes his insulin shots directly through his shirt into his stomach.  He says that it helps the pain of the needles.  Of course, blood then gets on the inside of his shirt and stains it.....and those tiny little needle jabs break through the fabric and with each wash, tend to break down the fibers in the shirt until little holes start to appear.

I did not know he was doing this until I started finding holey shirts.  I refuse to let him wear them - I toss them out.  I truly hate the fact that he has resorted to this.  But when I look at his stomach, it is simply one gigantic bruise of black, blue, green, purple, yellow, and orange.  So I suppose that if he thinks this insulates the pain, it's a small price to pay.

He now has to do his own laundry.  I'm not going to presoak to get the blood stains out.  He can figure out how to do that. And if he comes downstairs in the morning with a stained, holey shirt, I will tell him that if we are going out, he will have to change.

Maybe I should just let him go out looking like a hobo!  I could just tell people I married a holey hobo!

OK, one must laugh at least once a day to get through this.

I ended up sleeping on the sofa because the smells in our room were just rancid.  I didn't sleep a lot, so I'm not moving so well today.  May just take the entire day off.  After I go clean up the bathroom.  You know, there is just nothing I love better than cleaning a toilet that someone else has messed up with their uncontrollable diarrhea.  Nope - I am so looking forward to that task...I just can't tell you!

Blood stained holey shirts, diarrhea splattered toilets, and the acetone smell -rank fruity smell permeating the house at the moment....

and yet diabetics get mad at ME when I tell a young person to run away rather than marry into this?  They get angry with me when I tell them that if they are married, don't bring children into this situation?  They deny that any of this is ever going to happen to them?

Maybe I should write more about the grossness of this disease.   But first - I have to go clean toilets, open windows, air out the house!!!

DW

Liar again

I've noticed the past several days that he is back to taking a 6 pm shot. So tonight when he went upstairs to take it before dinner, I asked him when he changed back to 3 shots? He said, "I never quit."

Thinking how he often twists the questions I ask to give me the answer he wants, I said, "you said awhile back that you were quitting the 6 pm shot."

He said no, that he has always taken 3 shots a day.

So I found my blog where I noted he was changing to 2 shots a day:

"Creatinine level"

And I swear that he did quit the 6 pm shot...in fact I know he did.

So why lie? Did he really forget that he quit taking them? Can he not remember telling me he quit taking them? Maybe he quit for just a few days....but I seriously think it was more than a few weeks.

Either he lied back then or he is lying now.

Just makes me want to say "I don't care...do what you want with your life".

Problem is that when he goes on dialysis, if I'm still married to him, I will be the one taking care of him. And I honestly do care what he does because it has a huge impact on the quality of our life together.

Sigh. Maybe I should take up boxing so I'd have something to punch!!! OK, just kidding..I'm way too old for boxing!