Awake at 2 am this morning as he was up sick.
Awake at 3:30 am yesterday morning as he was up sick.
It's been a repeat every day this past week.
And he is refusing to go get labs done. He won't call his doctor. He is sick to his stomach, diarrhea (and I'm so tired of cleaning toilets!) and nothing sounds good to eat. Except potato chips. :o)
Pretty certain the neuropathy has found it's way to his intestines. But of course since he won't go to the doc, we don't know.
I really try to be supportive. It's so hard.
I really try to show compassion. But when he refuses to take care of himself and now he refuses to call the doctor, it's even harder.
And I know I'm just exhausted. I try to catch little naps during the day when I can. But it's not the same. I sleep more on the sofa than I do in my bed.
And my own pain has returned. I'm sure it's because I'm not getting enough sleep. I am trying to stay as active as I can, but I hurt so bad. Today I managed to prune the apple tree, cut numerous limbs off a peach tree and oak tree. Cut back all the raspberries and cleaned out one flower bed. But there is just so much more to do and I have to wonder how much longer I'll be able to do all this.
I find myself praying for a good night's sleep and no pain. It's what I need more than anything.
DW
Showing posts with label neuropathy. Show all posts
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Saturday, November 12, 2011
Saturday, November 01, 2008
back pain and things to give up.
He went to the doc fo rhis back and was told that it is his sciatic nerve and he needs to stay off his feet until it heals.
So I decided to do some research. Sciatic NERVE = any nerve = nerve ending damage as in neuropathy?
Sure enough. I think this is going to be an ongoing problem with him. Neuropathy in his sciatic nerve. It even has a name: Sciatica. So from past research on nerve ending damage - he should have severe pain for the next 2 years and then the feelings will die and he won't have the pain. Wonder if it works the same with the sciatic nerve? Will he lose all sense of felling as in his feet?
Time to look into getting a wheelchair?
I do believe he is starting to see the end results of this disease. When we were on the cruise, he had his first ever pedicure and loved it. So I talked him into signing up for a seaweed wrap and flotation massage. It was highly recommended for people with arthritis and I just thought it might make him feel better.
When he got to the SPA and they did their questionnaire with him, they told him he could not get the treatment. There was a risk of the lotions they use getting into a needle injection spot and causing an infection. A few hours later, he actually admitted being very depressed over everything that he can't do because he has diabetes.
So we had a good talk at that point. I simply reminded him that he has 2 choices. He can continue to ignore his sugar levels and endure the progression of this disease and give up more and more.....or he can try to maintain his current status by watching his sugar levels, dieting, and exercising. That's when he agreed to diet and watch his sugar levels.
The sad thing is that was a week ago and although he has been on our diet for 2 days now, he is just not willing to test his sugar even once a day.
So, yesterday, while at the grocery store, he had a low. He grabbed a bottle of fruit juice and downed that, then a hershey's chocolate bar and I was starting to wonder if he was going to make it out the door or not. He had taken his morning insulin and had not had a single thing to eat. So I asked him about that. Why would he not eat? And he said he just didn't feel like it. Once again I simply reminded him that if he doesn't take care of himself, all I can do is call 911 when he passes out.
Why doesn't he carry glucose tabs with him? And don't tell me to carry them for him - it's not my disease!!!!!
He said to me last night, "You should just leave me" and for the first time ever, I replied, "Well, I know it's an option that I have, but I'm not leaving yet."
He did not reply. I think I shocked him! I'm hoping he will think about what I said. I truly am not even considering leaving him, but knowing that it is an option is good mental health insurance for me.
DW
So I decided to do some research. Sciatic NERVE = any nerve = nerve ending damage as in neuropathy?
Sure enough. I think this is going to be an ongoing problem with him. Neuropathy in his sciatic nerve. It even has a name: Sciatica. So from past research on nerve ending damage - he should have severe pain for the next 2 years and then the feelings will die and he won't have the pain. Wonder if it works the same with the sciatic nerve? Will he lose all sense of felling as in his feet?
Time to look into getting a wheelchair?
I do believe he is starting to see the end results of this disease. When we were on the cruise, he had his first ever pedicure and loved it. So I talked him into signing up for a seaweed wrap and flotation massage. It was highly recommended for people with arthritis and I just thought it might make him feel better.
When he got to the SPA and they did their questionnaire with him, they told him he could not get the treatment. There was a risk of the lotions they use getting into a needle injection spot and causing an infection. A few hours later, he actually admitted being very depressed over everything that he can't do because he has diabetes.
So we had a good talk at that point. I simply reminded him that he has 2 choices. He can continue to ignore his sugar levels and endure the progression of this disease and give up more and more.....or he can try to maintain his current status by watching his sugar levels, dieting, and exercising. That's when he agreed to diet and watch his sugar levels.
The sad thing is that was a week ago and although he has been on our diet for 2 days now, he is just not willing to test his sugar even once a day.
So, yesterday, while at the grocery store, he had a low. He grabbed a bottle of fruit juice and downed that, then a hershey's chocolate bar and I was starting to wonder if he was going to make it out the door or not. He had taken his morning insulin and had not had a single thing to eat. So I asked him about that. Why would he not eat? And he said he just didn't feel like it. Once again I simply reminded him that if he doesn't take care of himself, all I can do is call 911 when he passes out.
Why doesn't he carry glucose tabs with him? And don't tell me to carry them for him - it's not my disease!!!!!
He said to me last night, "You should just leave me" and for the first time ever, I replied, "Well, I know it's an option that I have, but I'm not leaving yet."
He did not reply. I think I shocked him! I'm hoping he will think about what I said. I truly am not even considering leaving him, but knowing that it is an option is good mental health insurance for me.
DW
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